Life is like a brief candle

So teach us to number our days,That we may gain a heart of wisdom. Psalm 90:12

No one will successfully stop time and "rewind" the past.. Incredible scenes in " the heroes " kept us pondered whether this would be possible in the future.. There's so many things to be done, the lists go on and on, and we only have a lifetime to do them. A lifetime sounds never-ending, but soon, everything is going to terminate.

The older you get, the more you'll feel that life is like a brief candle, I like the analogy of describing life as toilet roll, the more it rolls out, the faster it is to complete a cycle (a year, in this case).
Since, you only have the one and only one chance to live on earth, why don't we live it to the fullest?

I've been slacking for the past weeks, doing merely nothing except for the basis of human needs, sleep , eat and entertainment. But, I could have spend the holidays wisely eh? It's always easier to say than to do it in action, and I failed doing that again.. I should have chose a better way of spending my holidays, I should have get organized with plans, ................etc.............

Too many things, we couldn't accomplish it all unfortunately, so, I've learnt to choose, make priorities over another, know what should be done, and what not (entertainment) and put a balance line in between. And the most important one, is to have a strong determination and be Focus!

Everyone ought to make new year resolutions, but do they really help? Well, I made some last year, and thank God for the consistency, I managed to do it.. Hopefully you all can head towards your goal,
Happy New Year!

Is it for better or for worst?

In a moody Sunday afternoon, with my gastric juice still secreting actively, stomach undergoing retropulsion, grinding huge particles into chymes, with mixture of secretions, busy-ness of the pyloric sphincter closing and opening every 5 seconds... resulting from the huge portion of does-not-taste-so-good pho noodle (Vietnamese cuisine), suddenly came into mind that I could just blot out everything here since I'm bored.

Was spending time at my aunt's an enjoyable one? Well.. not really. But, I guess, it's worst to stay in the ghost-house-liked residence as everyone is away for vacation or etc.. Sometimes, you just cant be too long in another family, no matter how close are you to them, in terms of blood-related/ intimacy-related. because you just can't fit into their boat. You'll sink, or else you'll cause them all to sink. Duh, of course, with my personality, it's always " my choice" naturally but unfortunately to just "fade away" and become invisible intrinsically.

Today's experience was a horrible one, but through time, I guess I "adapt" better now. Waiting at church at the corner for my aunt to end her conversation with a cheong hei aunty. (so that we could head for lunch and then go home) Impatiently looking at the clock every one-of hundredth seconds, anxiously hiding myself at a corner, hoping no one will see my awkward condition, surrounded by many on-top-of-fashion's-bandwagon universities students, giggling and gossiping around...

5 minutes, 10 minutes, 15 minutes have passed.. that's awkward, you know? strange that no one will ever come to approach you and place their concern, that's so unlikely compared to my former church. Maybe, this is a bigger church, with everyone living in their own group of world?? T.T I felt un-belonged. It happens in MCAC too. why.

Scanning at the beautiful photos of my friends traveling around the world envies me. Why don't I have such a group of friends? Even, the JPA-scholars that came to McGill went to Toronto for vacation.. They dont' even bother to invite you.. cuz they are JPA scholars and I'm what? Ling, another Malaysian who came to McGill on decision (like me), was not part of it too. That's pathetic...

The seniors always talk about their happiest life during University times. How they did this and that with bunch of crazy friends, without any worries etc... Erm, well? I-think-this-is-the-happiest-moment-in-life. ?

I don't belong here , do i? Just leave it to God. Meantime will try to enjoy as much as I could.
Thank you that You gave me life so that I can experience all these, be grateful at all times.

Thank you, Dear Lord.