So, what now?

Everyone asks the same question : How'r your classes? well..from academic aspects, some are fine, and I am struggling in some too.. eg management theories and practise. * what is that all about?? Each time I listen to the lecturer, my eyebrows frowned in confusion.. It's tough for me to understand everything he said, and what more to say to key into my brain..I feel hopeless.. Maybe this is the first time having this kind of subject,because all the time I was having biology,chemistry, physics and maths.. all i need is time to adapt to new things - words to comfort myself, it works huh? And I really miss my college lecturers, they are much better and entertaining..

I have 6 hours of break in between my classes. Thank God I live in the rez, really pity those who traveled from home and need to "stuck" in school for 6 boring hours...But i am wondering , " what about me? what have I been doing?Have I been trying on something meaningful and fruitful? " Unfortunately, the answer is NO and My sinful heart refuse to accept the truth.... * DING DING DING DING~!!!! it's time to change , to improve to a better me.. =) * i hope so =P

Have been experiencing alot of things alone lately, and actually it's not too bad to be alone at times, because I get to breathe, breathe fresh and silent air!!! I do appreciate time when I am alone now, where I can just do whatever I want to do and not to " act based on ppl's expression.." It is kinda challenging for me to be so tolerate with my roommate..everything must has its limits! Maybe God is testing my patience? My courage to speak up? I dont know... May God's will to be done..

So, what now? When I was in Taylors, I was really excited on fridays.. and counting down to the weekends I will be enjoying.. but now? I dont..some of my floor-mates went back to their lovely home, and it's even more quiet now.. ><

Anyways, enjoy your weekends!!! =)